When we lose a loved one our grief is for our loss for they have gained more than our minds can imagine. They now walk in the Kingdom with all who have gone before and they share in the presence of God face to face. We live in God’s presence and that is a wonderment itself. To have the privilege and honor to see God must be indescribable. I pray that I be made worthy through my thoughts, words and deeds each day. I know each time I look at the cross that I inflicted that pain upon Christ my Lord and my brother. I cannot tell you how deep I feel the pain in my heart and soul for all I have done. Even the smallest hurtful statement places one more thorn into the head of the precious One. Forgive me, my Father for what I have done and continue to do to Your son, forgive me my brother, forgive me my precious Holy Spirit and guiding light. Please keep my close and provide me the strength to do better each day.